Monday, April 28, 2014

BIG changes!!

So Geek and I are divorcing.  We are parting as friends, we both realize the marriage hasn't been working for some time.  As a child of divorce, I wasn't going to be the one to voice this.  We've been keeping it all from the kids.  They will be told once the school year is over. 

It's been hard, but I'm working through it.  There are days I want him to hurt as much as he;s hurt me and there are others that make me realize I'm happy this is happening.  Him working nights helps, the fact that he snores (so tends to sleep on the sofa) helps...the kids are used to this.

This happened over a month ago.  At Geeks suggestion, I signed up for an online dating site.  I didn't bother contacting anyone, just put my pictures and profile up and waited to see what happened.  About 2 weeks ago, Cowboy contacted me.  He knows the entire situation, is totally ok with it and best of all...he makes me happy.

Geek and I freely talk about the other people in our lives (out of earshot of the kids, of course)  He has told me that I'm happier than he has seen me in years and Cowboy seems to be a much better fit for me. 

We keep our other relationships away from the kids and the house.  We take phone calls in private if they call to talk.  Geek says I keep over thinking things with Cowboy.  I'm wondering if I should have been alone longer (or even forever)...I wonder if Cowboy is really the good guy he has shown to me (I go back and forth on this one)...Geek says I should just enjoy myself.

So that's the changes in my personal life.